The Red Guitar

by SalientLane

Seamus's phone buzzed for the third time in fifteen minutes. He glanced down, that same involuntary smile tugging at his lips as he read Leo's latest text. Across the room, Griffin looked up from his comic book, his eyes narrowing slightly. The brothers had spent countless afternoons like this, sharing the same space in comfortable silence. But today, something was different. Seamus felt it—a subtle shift in the air between them, like the pressure drop before a storm.

"Someone sure likes texting you," Griffin said, his voice carefully neutral.

Seamus shrugged, trying to seem casual. "Just Leo from biology class."

"The one with the blue hair?"

"Yeah," Seamus replied, thumbs already tapping out a response. "He's cool."

Griffin turned a page in his comic with unnecessary force. "What's he want?"

"Nothing. Just talking." Seamus hesitated, then added, "He wants to hang out sometime."

Griffin's fingers tightened on the edges of his comic, creating small creases in the glossy paper. "We were going to finish the tree fort this weekend."

"Not this weekend," Seamus said. "Maybe next week or something."

The conversation faded, but Seamus could feel his brother's eyes on him, watching as his phone lit up again and again. Each time, that small smile returned to Seamus's face—a smile he wasn't even aware of until he caught Griffin staring at it.

Over the next few days, the texts continued. Leo was funny and direct in a way Seamus found both nerve-wracking and exciting. He made jokes about cute boys at school, openly included Seamus in that category, and seemed utterly unafraid of his own feelings. It was refreshing—terrifying, but refreshing.

"You guys doing anything after school?" Leo texted on Thursday morning.

"Just hanging with Griff," Seamus replied.

Three dots appeared, disappeared, then reappeared. "Cool. But I meant just you and me sometime."

Seamus stared at the screen, his heart doing an odd little dance in his chest. Beside him at the breakfast table, Griffin silently spooned cereal into his mouth, but Seamus could feel him watching.

"Sure, that'd be cool," he typed back, aware of Griffin's eyes tracking the movement of his thumbs.

"Tomorrow? Your place?"

Seamus hesitated. Their house had always been his and Griffin's sanctuary. Bringing someone else into it felt like crossing some invisible line. "Yeah, ok," he wrote, ignoring the weight in his stomach.

When he looked up, Griffin was gone, his half-eaten cereal abandoned on the table.

The next day, Seamus found himself tidying his room, something he rarely bothered with. He changed his shirt twice. When the doorbell rang, Griffin was nowhere to be seen.

"Hey," Leo said, standing on the porch with his blue-tipped hair and easy confidence. He wore a band t-shirt Seamus didn't recognize and jeans with artful rips that looked intentional rather than the result of actual falls and scrapes like Seamus's own.

"Hey," Seamus replied, stepping back to let him in. "This is, uh, my house."

Leo nodded, looking around with interest. "Cool. Your parents home?"

"Nah, not till dinner."

Something passed over Leo's face—a flicker of something that made Seamus's neck heat up. "Just us then?"

"And my brother," Seamus added quickly. "He's around somewhere."

As if summoned, Griffin appeared at the top of the stairs, his face a careful blank. He descended slowly, each step deliberate.

"Griffin, this is Leo. Leo, my brother Griffin."

Leo smiled, genuinely friendly. "Hey, man. Seamus talks about you all the time."

Griffin's eyes flicked between them. "Does he?" he said flatly.

An uncomfortable silence settled, broken only when Seamus suggested they play video games. They migrated to the living room, where Griffin sat in the corner armchair, separate from the two older boys on the couch.

As they played, Leo was animated and funny, leaning into Seamus when he laughed, occasionally letting their shoulders brush. Each time it happened, Seamus would instinctively glance toward Griffin, whose face grew stonier by the minute.

"So you guys do everything together, huh?" Leo asked during a lull in the game.

"Pretty much," Seamus answered. "Since forever."

"That's nice," Leo said, but there was a question in his voice.

Griffin said nothing, just stared at the screen with such intensity it was a wonder it didn't crack.

After an hour that felt much longer, Leo checked his phone and announced he needed to head home. At the door, he bumped Seamus's shoulder with his own. "This was fun. Next time maybe we could do something, just us?"

Seamus felt himself nodding, aware of Griffin hovering in the hallway behind them.

"Cool," Leo said, his smile bright. "See you Monday." He gave a small wave that included Griffin, then headed down the front walk.

Seamus closed the door and turned, bracing himself for—he wasn't sure what. The silence was thick, charged.

"Why does he have to be here?" Griffin finally burst out. "This is our space."

"God, Griff, can't I have a friend?" Seamus shot back, frustration rising unexpectedly. "It's not always just us!"

"But it should be!" Griffin's voice cracked, his hands balling into fists at his sides. "It should always be just us! I don't want to share you! I… I can't!"

The raw pain in his brother's voice stopped Seamus cold. This wasn't normal sibling jealousy. This was something else, something that sent a shock of recognition through him.

Griffin stood there, eyes wet and defiant, chest heaving with emotion too big for his eleven-year-old frame. The look on his face wasn't childish petulance. It was the naked agony of a heart being torn in two.

Seamus stared, unable to speak. And in Griffin's anguished eyes, he didn't see his little brother throwing a tantrum. He saw a mirror—a reflection of feelings he hadn't allowed himself to name.

"Griff," he managed, his voice barely audible.

But Griffin was already turning away, shoulders hunched, running up the stairs two at a time. His bedroom door slammed, the sound echoing through the house like a gunshot.

Seamus stood frozen in the hallway, the realization hitting him with stunning clarity. The unspoken truth hung in the air between them, too vast and dangerous to acknowledge, but impossible to ignore.

Night pressed against the bedroom window, but Seamus didn't notice the darkness. He lay on his back, eyes fixed on the ceiling, mind replaying Griffin's outburst over and over. "It should always be just us." The words hung in the quiet room like physical things. Downstairs, he could hear his parents moving around, their muffled voices a distant soundtrack to his churning thoughts. He'd told them Griffin wasn't feeling well—not exactly a lie. Down the hall, his brother's room remained silent. No music, no sound of pages turning, nothing to indicate whether Griffin was awake or asleep. Just silence, heavy with everything unsaid.

Seamus turned onto his side, drawing his knees up slightly. The confrontation played in his mind like a movie he couldn't stop. Griffin's face—flushed with emotion, eyes bright with unshed tears. The way his voice had cracked. The raw, desperate quality of his words. In the moment, Seamus had been shocked, unable to process what was happening. Now, in the darkness, clarity was creeping in, bringing with it a fear that made his heart race.

What had he seen in Griffin's eyes? Not just jealousy. Something deeper. Something older than his brother's eleven years. Something that mirrored emotions Seamus himself had been carefully not examining.

His phone sat dark and silent on the nightstand. Leo had texted after leaving, something casual about having a good time, but Seamus hadn't responded. Now he thought about Leo's attention—the flattering comments, the casual touches, the clear interest. How had it made him feel? Flattered, yes. Nervous, definitely. But not… not the way he'd expected to feel when someone liked him.

When he pictured someone looking at him with real desire, with love, the face that came to mind wasn't Leo's. It wasn't any of the girls at school who sometimes smiled at him in the hallways. It wasn't even the celebrities whose posters decorated some of his classmates' rooms.

It was Griffin.

Seamus squeezed his eyes shut, as if he could block out his own thoughts. But they persisted, demanding attention. All those times he'd measured other friendships against his bond with Griffin and found them wanting. The way he'd always prioritized his brother over everyone else. How he'd assumed that was normal, that every older brother felt that level of devotion, that need to be together.

Had he been lying to himself? Or had he simply not understood the nature of his own feelings?

He thought about the boys at school. How often had he found himself comparing them to Griffin? This one wasn't as funny, that one wasn't as smart. This one's laugh was too loud, that one's smile not quite right. Always with Griffin as the measure, the ideal. The specific curve of Griffin's smile, the particular sound of his laugh—these were the standards against which Seamus unconsciously judged everyone.

And then, like a key turning in a lock, a memory surfaced. Clear and vivid, as if it had been waiting just below the surface of his consciousness.

A year ago, Griffin had a nightmare—one of those terrible dreams that left him gasping and disoriented. Seamus had heard him cry out and gone to his room without hesitation. Griffin, shaking and pale, had looked up at him with such naked relief that something had twisted painfully in Seamus's chest.

"Can I stay with you?" Griffin had asked, voice small.

They had shared a bed plenty of times as younger children, during thunderstorms or after scary movies. But they were older then, and it had been a while. Still, Seamus hadn't even considered saying no.

He remembered lying awake long after Griffin had fallen back to sleep. Streetlight had filtered through the blinds, casting stripes of silver across Griffin's face. His features, relaxed in sleep, had looked both familiar and somehow new. The curve of his cheek, the fan of his eyelashes, the soft part of his lips.

A feeling had washed over Seamus then, so profound it had stolen his breath. He'd categorized it as protectiveness—the natural concern of an older brother. Now, with this new lens, he re-examined it.

The memory wasn't soft. It was charged. It wasn't just the desire to protect, but to possess. To be the only one who saw Griffin like that. To be the one he needed, always.

"Oh." The word escaped him, a silent bullet in the dark.

Seamus pressed his hands to his face, feeling the heat in his cheeks. The understanding didn't feel foreign or shocking. It felt like recognition. Like finding the name for something he'd known his whole life but never had the language to describe.

He hadn't caught a new feeling tonight; he'd finally identified the oldest, deepest one. The foundation of their "unit"—that's what their parents called them, "the unit," because they were always together—wasn't just friendship or brotherly affection. It was this. This unnamed, impossible thing.

And he had been building his life on it without knowing its name.

The realization brought neither disgust nor panic, which itself should have been alarming. Instead, there was a terrible sort of relief in finally understanding. In no longer pretending that what he felt was only brotherly love.

His empathy for Griffin now was absolute and terrifying. The jealousy, the possessiveness, the desire to be each other's entire world—Griffin felt it too. Had maybe been more honest with himself about it than Seamus had been. Had certainly been braver in showing it, however inadvertently.

I feel it too, he thought, the words forming fully in his mind for the first time. The admission felt like stepping off a cliff—terrifying and exhilarating and final.

Seamus lay in the darkness, letting the truth settle into his bones. There was no going back from this understanding. No way to unknow what he now knew. Across the hall, behind a closed door, Griffin was probably lying awake too, frightened of what he'd revealed, unaware that his feelings were shared.

The thought of his brother suffering alone made Seamus's chest ache. But what could he do? What words could possibly bridge this new, vast space between them? How could he comfort Griffin without confirming the very thing that should never be confirmed?

Seamus rolled onto his back again, staring at the ceiling as if it might offer answers. But there were no answers, only the steady rhythm of his heart and the echo of a truth too dangerous to speak aloud: I feel it too.

The year before. Griffin woke before the sun on Christmas morning, that familiar childhood excitement humming through his veins. The house was silent, wrapped in pre-dawn shadows, but he could sense the magic waiting downstairs—the presents, the stuffed stockings, the scent of pine from the tree they'd decorated together. He turned his head on the pillow, finding Seamus still asleep beside him, his brother's profile soft in the dim light filtering through the curtains. Something about the sight made Griffin's chest tighten with affection. This was his favorite part of Christmas—not the presents or the food, but these quiet moments with Seamus, the two of them sharing everything, even the anticipation.

"Shea," he whispered, the nickname falling from his lips like a secret. "Wake up. It's Christmas."

Seamus stirred, his eyes opening slowly, finding Griffin's face in the dimness. A smile spread across his features, warm and private. "What time is it?"

"Early," Griffin admitted. "But I can't sleep anymore."

Seamus chuckled, the sound still rough with sleep. "You never can on Christmas." He reached out, ruffling Griffin's already-messy hair. "Just like when you were little."

Griffin leaned into the touch, not bothering to pull away or protest that he wasn't little anymore. At ten years old, he was starting to feel the first tugs of adolescence, that vague awareness that childhood was slipping behind him. But with Seamus, he never felt the need to pretend to be older or cooler than he was.

"Do you think Mom and Dad are up yet?" Griffin asked, his eyes darting toward the bedroom door.

"Doubtful." Seamus propped himself up on one elbow. "But we could go down and check out what Santa brought."

The mention of Santa made Griffin roll his eyes—they both knew the truth about who filled the stockings and wrapped the presents—but he still felt that flutter of magic at the mention. Some parts of childhood were worth holding onto.

They slipped out of bed, the wooden floor cold beneath their bare feet. Griffin pulled on his robe, a plaid flannel thing that was starting to get too short in the sleeves. Seamus did the same, though his was newer, a Christmas gift from the previous year.

As they crept down the hallway, Griffin's mind drifted to the guitar he'd been dreaming of for months. It had appeared in the window of the consignment shop downtown sometime in the spring—a cherry red Epiphone g-400, slightly faded from years of use but still beautiful. He'd pressed his face against the glass the first time he saw it, his breath fogging the window. It wasn't a Gibson SG—the real thing—just a copy, but to Griffin, it had been the most beautiful instrument he'd ever seen.

Every time they'd walked past the shop after that, he'd paused to look at it. Sometimes he'd even gone inside, asking the shop owner if he could just hold it for a minute. The price tag put it firmly out of reach—$275 might as well have been a million dollars to a ten-year-old with a five-dollar weekly allowance. Griffin had done the math once; it would take him over a year to save enough, and that was if he didn't spend a penny on anything else.

So he'd resigned himself to just looking, just dreaming. He'd even stopped mentioning it to Seamus after a while, not wanting to seem like he was hinting or begging. For Christmas this year, he'd asked for practical things—new soccer cleats since he'd outgrown his old ones, a few books, maybe some video games if his parents were feeling generous. The guitar remained an impossible dream, tucked away in the corner of his heart.

The living room was dark except for the colored lights of the Christmas tree, casting soft blues and reds and greens across the wrapped packages beneath. Griffin and Seamus settled on the couch, not touching anything yet, just soaking in the moment. This was their tradition—being the first ones awake, sitting together in the quiet of Christmas morning before anyone else stirred.

"Excited about your presents?" Seamus asked, his voice hushed in the stillness.

Griffin nodded. "Yeah. But I like this part too."

"Me too." Seamus bumped his shoulder against Griffin's, a gesture so familiar it was like a language between them.

They sat in comfortable silence as the room gradually brightened with dawn. Eventually, their parents shuffled in, sleepy but smiling, followed by Uncle Mike who was staying for the holidays. Their cousin Ben trailed behind, looking grumpy about being awake so early—at fifteen, he was firmly in the teenage phase of sleeping until noon whenever possible.

"Well, look who's already up," their father said, not looking surprised in the least. "Been waiting long?"

"Just a bit," Seamus replied with a grin.

Their mother went to make coffee while their father settled into his armchair. "Alright, who wants to be Santa this year?"

"I will!" Griffin volunteered, as he did every year. He loved the role of gift distributor, carefully reading tags and delivering presents to each person.

The ritual began—Griffin passing out gifts one by one, everyone opening them in turns so each present could be properly admired. Griffin received the soccer cleats he'd asked for, along with some new comics and a science kit. Good gifts, practical gifts, things he was genuinely pleased to have.

But he couldn't help noticing how Seamus seemed wound tight, almost nervous. When it was his turn to open presents, Seamus was distracted, his eyes repeatedly drifting to the back of the tree where a few remaining packages sat.

Griffin handed out the last of the visible presents, his duty as Santa seemingly complete. He was settling back onto the couch when Seamus stood suddenly.

"Wait," Seamus said. "There's one more. For Griffin."

Griffin looked up, confused. He'd distributed all the wrapped packages with his name on them.

Seamus reached behind the tree, pulling out something that had been hidden from view. It was oddly shaped, wrapped in red and green paper with a large gold bow. The object was unmistakably a guitar case.

Griffin's heart stuttered in his chest. It couldn't be. It couldn't possibly be.

"This is from me," Seamus said, his voice wavering slightly as he held out the gift. "Merry Christmas, Griff."

Griffin took the package with trembling hands. It was heavier than he expected, solid. Real. The room had gone quiet, everyone watching him with expectant smiles. But Griffin only saw Seamus, only felt the weight of the gift in his hands.

He tore the paper carefully, revealing a black hard-shell case with silver latches. Not new—there were scuffs along the edges, small signs of use—but well cared for. Griffin's fingers fumbled with the latches, his breath catching in his throat. When he lifted the lid, his heart stopped.

There it was. The cherry red Epiphone g-400 from the shop window. The same faded finish, the same small scratch near the bottom edge that he'd memorized during his many visits. It was exactly as beautiful as he remembered, maybe more so now that it was in front of him, real and tangible and somehow, impossibly, his.

Griffin looked up at Seamus, his vision blurring with tears. "How did you…?"

Seamus smiled, though his own eyes were suspiciously bright. "I've been saving since April."

"April?" Griffin's voice cracked on the word. Nine months of saving. Nearly a year of Seamus putting aside his allowance, his birthday money, probably working odd jobs for neighbors.

"You wanted it so much," Seamus said simply, as if that explained everything. And maybe it did.

Griffin set the guitar carefully back in its case and launched himself at his brother, wrapping his arms around Seamus's waist and burying his face in his chest. He was crying now, not even trying to hide it, overwhelmed by a feeling so big it seemed impossible to contain.

"Thank you," he managed, the words muffled against Seamus's shirt. "Thank you, Shea."

Seamus's arms came around him, holding him tight. "You're welcome," he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. Griffin felt the slight shake in his brother's shoulders and realized Seamus was crying too.

They stood like that, locked in an embrace, while their family watched with indulgent smiles. Griffin couldn't have said how long they stayed that way—time seemed suspended, narrowed down to just the two of them and the enormity of what Seamus had done.

When they finally pulled apart, both wiping at their eyes, Uncle Mike was chuckling softly. "Well, that's got to be the best present of the day. Hard to follow that act."

Griffin returned to the guitar, touching it reverently. The strings were cold beneath his fingertips, the neck smooth and solid. He'd never played an electric guitar before—just the battered acoustic that belonged to their father—but he already loved the feel of it.

"I can teach you some chords later," Seamus offered, sitting beside him on the couch. "I know a few basics."

Griffin nodded, unable to stop smiling despite the tears that still threatened. "I'd like that."

The rest of the morning passed in a blur of wrapping paper and thank-yous, but Griffin remained acutely aware of Seamus throughout. Every time their eyes met, Griffin felt that same swell of emotion—gratitude, yes, but something deeper too. Something he didn't have a name for yet.

After breakfast, they bundled up for the traditional neighborhood snowball fight. The street was filled with kids, everyone showing off new Christmas gifts and eager to burn off energy before family dinners. Griffin brought his new soccer ball to try out in the snow, but his mind kept drifting back to the guitar waiting at home. To Seamus, and the gift that represented so much more than just an instrument.

The snow was perfect for packing—wet enough to hold together, dry enough not to soak through their gloves immediately. Griffin and Seamus naturally ended up on the same team, as they always did. They had a silent communication that made them formidable opponents, anticipating each other's moves without a word.

"Tierney brothers are crushing it!" one of the neighbor boys called as Seamus landed a particularly well-aimed snowball.

Griffin grinned, pride swelling in his chest. They were a unit, a team. Inseparable. He watched as Seamus ducked behind a snow fort, his cheeks flushed with cold and exertion, snowflakes caught in his dark hair. Something shifted in Griffin's perception, a subtle change in the way he saw his brother. Seamus had always been his hero, his best friend. But now, watching him laugh in the winter sunlight, Griffin felt a new dimension to his admiration—a depth that made his heart race in a way he didn't fully understand.

Throughout the afternoon, Griffin found his eyes drawn to Seamus again and again. During the snowball fight, as they built a snowman with the younger kids, when they finally retreated indoors with red noses and frozen toes. Each time, the sight of his brother sent a warm current through Griffin's chest, a feeling like sunlight spreading beneath his skin.

Christmas dinner was a feast—turkey and stuffing, mashed potatoes and cranberry sauce, all the traditional fixings. Griffin sat across from Seamus at the dining table, their parents at either end, Uncle Mike and Ben filling out the remaining seats. The conversation flowed around them—stories from Christmases past, compliments on the food, gentle teasing between family members.

"So what's your favorite gift this year, Griffin?" Uncle Mike asked, passing the gravy boat.

Griffin didn't hesitate. "The guitar from Seamus."

"It's a beauty," Uncle Mike agreed. "You're going to be a rock star before we know it."

Griffin ducked his head, pleased by the prediction but more affected by the proud smile on Seamus's face. Their eyes met across the table, and something unspoken passed between them—an acknowledgment, a promise. Griffin couldn't have said exactly what it meant, only that it felt important, a moment he would remember.

Throughout the meal, Griffin found himself stealing glances at Seamus, studying the way his brother's hands moved as he talked, the precise angle of his smile, the exact shade of blue in his eyes. Each detail seemed suddenly fascinating, worth memorizing. When Seamus caught him looking, Griffin didn't look away, just smiled, feeling no need to hide his admiration.

After dinner, while the adults cleared the table and settled in for coffee and more conversation, the boys retreated to Seamus's room. The guitar came with them, of course. Griffin couldn't bear to let it out of his sight for long.

"Okay, first lesson," Seamus said, sitting cross-legged on his bed. "How to hold it properly."

Griffin nodded eagerly, mimicking his brother's posture on the opposite end of the bed. The guitar felt alive in his hands, full of potential. Seamus showed him how to position his fingers for a few basic chords—A minor, E, G. Griffin's fingers ached after just a few minutes, unused to the pressure of steel strings, but he wouldn't have stopped for anything.

"That's it," Seamus encouraged when Griffin managed a clean-sounding chord. "You're getting it."

The praise warmed Griffin from the inside out. He practiced the chord progressions Seamus taught him, determined to make his brother proud. Outside, snow began to fall again, soft flakes illuminated by the streetlights. Inside, in the warm circle of Seamus's attention, Griffin felt perfectly content.

"I still can't believe you got me this," he said during a break, running his fingers along the smooth body of the guitar. "How did you know it was still there?"

Seamus smiled, a hint of mischief in his eyes. "I asked the shop owner to hold it for me. Told him my little brother had been dreaming about it for months."

"You didn't." Griffin stared, amazed.

"I did," Seamus confirmed. "Paid him a little each week. He was pretty cool about it."

Griffin shook his head, overwhelmed again by the thought of Seamus planning this for so long, saving so carefully, all for him. "I don't know how to thank you enough."

Seamus's expression softened. "You don't have to thank me, Griff. The look on your face when you opened it—that was enough."

They practiced for another hour before their mother called up that it was time to get ready for bed. With Uncle Mike staying in Griffin's room and Ben on an air mattress in the office, Griffin would be sharing with Seamus for the duration of the holiday visit. Neither boy minded—they'd shared a room until Griffin was seven, and still frequently ended up in each other's beds during thunderstorms or after scary movies.

Griffin carefully placed his new guitar in its case, setting it reverently against Seamus's desk chair where he could see it from the bed. He changed into his pajamas, brushed his teeth, went through all the usual bedtime rituals, but everything felt different tonight. Charged with significance, as if the world had shifted slightly on its axis.

When they finally climbed into Seamus's bed, the room dark except for the string of colored lights Seamus had hung around his window, Griffin felt a deep contentment settle over him. Seamus's arm came around him naturally, a familiar comfort that tonight felt especially precious.

"Best Christmas ever," Griffin murmured, already drifting toward sleep.

"Yeah?" Seamus sounded pleased.

"Mm-hmm." Griffin nestled closer, breathing in the familiar scent of his brother—soap and shampoo and something uniquely Seamus. "Not just the guitar. Although that's amazing. But just… everything."

Seamus squeezed him gently. "I'm glad. Merry Christmas, Griff."

"Merry Christmas, Shea."

As sleep took him, Griffin's last conscious thought was of Seamus's face when he'd handed over that gift—nervous, hopeful, filled with a love so evident it had brought tears to both their eyes. Griffin had always adored his brother, had always felt a connection deeper than words could express. But tonight, that feeling had crystallized into something new, something overwhelming in its intensity.

He loved Seamus. Not just as a brother or a friend, but in a way that filled every corner of his heart, a love so complete it felt like the most natural thing in the world. Lying there in Seamus's arms, his new guitar propped against the chair like a promise of all the music they would make together, Griffin surrendered to that love without reservation. Whatever it meant, however complicated it might be, he embraced it entirely.

In the morning, there would be more family time, more Christmas celebrations. But right now, in this perfect moment of peace, there was just Seamus and Griffin, together as they were always meant to be.

The minutes crawled by, each one stretching like taffy as Seamus stared at the ceiling. Sleep refused to come. His mind raced with the truth he'd uncovered—a truth that both explained everything and complicated it beyond measure. Griffin was just down the hall, probably lying awake too, alone with the weight of feelings he'd accidentally revealed. The thought of his brother suffering by himself became unbearable. Before he could think better of it, Seamus pushed back his covers and swung his legs over the side of the bed.

The floor was cold against his bare feet. He paused, listening to the silence of the house—the distant hum of the refrigerator, the occasional creak of the house settling. His parents had gone to bed hours ago. The digital clock on his nightstand read 1:37 AM, its red numbers casting a faint glow in the darkness.

Seamus stood, his heart thumping so loudly he was sure it would wake everyone. He moved to his door, opened it quietly, and stepped into the Jack- and-Jill bathroom that connected his room to Griffin's. The tiles were even colder than his bedroom floor, sending a shiver up his spine. Or maybe the shiver came from what he was about to do—from the conversation he wasn't sure he was ready to have.

In the bathroom mirror, barely visible in the dim light, his reflection looked back at him, pale and uncertain. What was he going to say? How could he possibly put into words the realization that had consumed him for hours? He couldn't name it directly—that would make it too real, too dangerous. But he couldn't ignore it either, not when Griffin was hurting.

Seamus took a deep breath, ran a hand through his sleep-mussed hair, and crossed to the door that led to Griffin's room. His hand hovered over the knob, trembling slightly. What if Griffin rejected him? What if this conversation only made things worse?

The thought of retreating back to his own room flashed through his mind, but he pushed it away. Griffin needed him. And if he was honest, he needed Griffin too.

He turned the knob slowly, wincing at the faint click as the latch released. The door swung open on silent hinges, revealing the darkness of Griffin's room. A sliver of moonlight cut through a gap in the curtains, illuminating the shape of his brother in bed.

Griffin was curled on his side, knees tucked up, back to the door. He was wearing the same blue plaid pajama bottoms that Seamus wore. Just like Seamus, his chest was bare. The sight was so familiar, so normal, yet tonight it felt charged with new meaning.

"Hey," Seamus whispered, his voice sounding too loud in the quiet room. "I'm sorry. I…"

He hesitated, then moved to the bed, sitting down carefully on the edge. The mattress dipped under his weight. Griffin didn't turn around, didn't acknowledge him at all.

"I didn't know," Seamus continued, the words feeling inadequate.

Griffin remained motionless, his breathing too even to be natural. He was awake, Seamus knew, just refusing to respond.

"You not speaking to me?" Seamus asked, unable to keep the hurt from his voice. He sounded young suddenly, younger than his thirteen years, almost like he used to sound when they were little and Griffin would get mad at him for some childhood slight.

The silence stretched between them, heavy but not empty. It was full of hurt—Griffin's hurt, radiating outward like heat from a fire. Seamus felt it like a weight pressing down on his chest, making it difficult to breathe.

He waited, watching the rise and fall of Griffin's side as he breathed. The house creaked again, somewhere distant. A car passed on the street outside, its headlights briefly painting moving shadows across the wall.

"You don't understand," Griffin finally whispered, his voice trembling. He still didn't turn around. "If you let him in… if you let anyone in… then I'm not enough anymore."

The words hit Seamus like a slap. He sat there, unable to respond immediately, feeling the truth of Griffin's fear. Because it was his fear too—that somehow, by letting others into their world, they would lose the special connection that had defined them for as long as he could remember.

Griffin didn't move, didn't look at him, just stared at the wall as if it could hold him together. But Seamus could see the slight shake of his shoulders, the tense set of his back.

"You are enough," Seamus said, but even to his own ears, the words sounded thin, fragile. Not because they weren't true, but because they didn't capture the complexity of what he felt.

He rubbed at his arm, suddenly aware of how alone he felt in that moment. The thought of going back to his own room, lying awake with the silence pressing in, made his stomach twist. He needed Griffin's presence, needed the comfort of being together, more than he had words to express.

Griffin's shoulders shook once, a tremor he tried to hide. "Then why does it feel like you're dumping me?" His voice was thin, frayed at the edges with tears he was fighting to hold back.

"I'm never going to dump you," Seamus said, finding himself trying to hold back his own tears. The rawness in Griffin's voice broke something open inside him, unleashing all the fears he'd been pushing down.

That seemed to break Griffin's stillness. He rolled onto his back, resting his hands behind his neck, eyes shining in the dim light. For the first time since Seamus had entered the room, they made eye contact.

"It's true," Griffin said, his gaze steady despite the wetness in his eyes. "You feel it too."

Four simple words, but they changed everything. They acknowledged the truth that had been circling between them all night. All their lives, maybe.

Seamus nodded, barely, a movement so small it was almost imperceptible. But Griffin saw it—Seamus could tell by the way his breath caught.

The air between them was heavy with the thing they couldn't name. Neither spoke for a long time. The silence was louder than words, filled with the truth they couldn't say: They were terrified of losing each other, but equally scared of their own feelings.

Seamus stared at his hands, unable to meet Griffin's eyes any longer. What would happen now? How could they go forward with this knowledge between them? It seemed impossible that anything could remain the same, yet equally impossible that they could change.

Finally, Griffin reached out, fingers brushing Seamus's wrist. The touch was light, tentative, but it sent a jolt through Seamus that was half comfort, half something else he didn't have a name for.

"Promise me," Griffin said, his voice breaking. "Promise me you won't let me go."

Seamus closed his eyes, the promise burning in his chest. It wasn't a simple thing Griffin was asking for. It wasn't just about staying close as brothers. It was about this unnamed thing between them, this connection that went deeper than blood.

"I promise," he said, the words feeling like a vow.

He opened his eyes, looking at Griffin's face in the dim light. His brother looked both younger and older than his eleven years—vulnerable in his need, but with eyes that held a knowledge beyond childhood.

"Can I…" Seamus hesitated, cheeks burning with the admission. "Can I sleep in here tonight? With you?"

He inhaled and continued, his voice breaking. "I don't want to be alone tonight."

The confession hung between them, raw and unguarded. It was about more than just tonight, more than just not wanting to be physically alone. It was about the loneliness he felt whenever they were apart, the emptiness that nothing else seemed to fill.

Griffin's lips parted, but no words came. Instead, he shifted, pulling back the duvet in a silent invitation.

Seamus slid under, the warmth of his brother's body a comfort he hadn't realized he craved until now. The bed was narrower than his own, forcing them to lie close together. Their arms touched, skin against skin, and neither pulled away.

They lay there in the dark, the quiet filled with the sound of their breathing. Seamus stared at the ceiling, heart pounding, and whispered, "I don't want things to change."

Griffin turned his head, eyes glinting in the faint light. "Me neither."

But they both knew that things already had changed. The conversation with Leo, Griffin's outburst, Seamus's realization—they couldn't go back from those moments. They could only go forward, into whatever uncertain future awaited them.

For a long time, neither boy spoke. The truth was too frightening, too big for words. But pressed together in the small bed, they found a fragile peace. It wasn't the peace of resolution or understanding, but the peace of knowing they weren't facing their fears alone.

Griffin's breathing gradually slowed, his body relaxing against Seamus's side. But Seamus could tell he wasn't asleep—not yet. There was still a tension in his fingers where they rested against Seamus's arm, a slight irregularity in his breathing.

"Shea?" Griffin whispered, using the nickname from their earliest childhood.

"Yeah?"

"What happens tomorrow? When Leo texts you again?"

Seamus swallowed hard. "I don't know," he admitted. "But we'll figure it out together."

Griffin was quiet for a moment. "Do you like him? Like, really like him?"

The question hung in the air, loaded with implications. Seamus thought about Leo—his blue hair, his confidence, his obvious interest. How had it made him feel? The answer came quickly, with a clarity that surprised him.

"No," he said. "Not really. Not like…" He trailed off, unable to finish the sentence.

Not like I like you remained unspoken, but Seamus knew Griffin heard it anyway. He felt Griffin's fingers tighten briefly on his arm, then relax.

"Okay," Griffin said, the word barely audible.

They fell silent again. Outside, the wind picked up, rustling the leaves of the oak tree that grew beside their house. The branches scratched gently against the siding, a familiar sound from countless nights of their childhood.

Seamus felt his eyelids growing heavy at last, sleep finally approaching. Beside him, Griffin's breathing had deepened, his body growing heavier against Seamus's side.

It wasn't the kind of sleep that came easily, but it was the only way they could rest that night—clinging to each other, each terrified of losing the other. Their world had been tilted on its axis, everything familiar suddenly strange and new. But in this moment, in the darkness of Griffin's room, they had found a temporary shelter.

Tomorrow would bring its own challenges. There would be more conversations, more uncomfortable realizations. They would have to figure out how to navigate this new understanding of themselves and each other. But for now, for these few hours, they could simply be together, the way they had always been.

As sleep finally claimed him, Seamus's last conscious thought was of Griffin's hand still resting on his arm, an anchor in a suddenly uncertain world.

Griffin opened his eyes slowly, morning light filtering through the blinds in thin strips of gold. His first awareness wasn't of the time or day, but of warmth—Seamus's warmth, radiating through him where their bodies touched. During the night, they had shifted into a new position. Seamus's arms were wrapped around him protectively, and Griffin's head rested on his brother's bare chest, rising and falling with each deep, sleeping breath. Somehow in the night, Seamus had kicked off his pajama bottoms; they lay discarded on the floor beside the bed, leaving him in just his white briefs. Griffin didn't move, not wanting to break the spell of this perfect moment.

The steady rhythm of Seamus's heartbeat filled Griffin's ear, strong and constant. He could feel the smooth warmth of his brother's skin against his cheek, the solid weight of arms holding him close. Griffin's own pajama pants felt too warm now, but he wouldn't disturb this embrace to remove them. Instead, he settled more heavily against Seamus, soaking in the feeling of being held, of being safe.

Last night's pain seemed distant now, washed away by the simple reality of their closeness. The fear of separation, the jealousy over Leo, the terrifying moment when Griffin had revealed too much—all of it faded into the background compared to this. This was real. This was them, the way they'd always been. The way Griffin hoped they'd always be.

He sighed and relaxed, nestling closer to Seamus's warm skin. Why did it have to be complicated? Why couldn't it always be this easy? When it was just the two of them, everything made sense. It was only when the outside world intruded that things became confused and painful.

Griffin's thoughts drifted, lazy in the morning quiet. He knew what people would say if they could see them now. He wasn't stupid; at eleven, he understood more than adults gave him credit for. He knew brothers weren't supposed to need each other this much, weren't supposed to feel this way about each other. But those expectations meant nothing to him. They were just rules made by strangers who didn't understand—couldn't understand—what he and Seamus meant to each other.

All his life, Griffin had felt like he and Seamus were somehow different from other brothers. More connected, more in tune with each other. They could communicate without words, sense each other's moods, finish each other's thoughts. "The unit," their parents called them. But even that didn't capture the depth of what Griffin felt.

He loved Seamus. Loved him with a fierce, protective devotion that seemed too big for his eleven-year-old body to contain. There was nothing he wouldn't do for his brother. If Seamus were in danger, Griffin would face an army single-handed. He would crawl through hell for Seamus. He would endure any pain, overcome any obstacle, just to keep his brother safe and happy.

And Griffin knew, with absolute certainty, that Seamus felt the same. It wasn't something they'd ever needed to discuss. It was simply understood, a fundamental truth of their existence. Seamus would go through the worst imaginable hell for Griffin. There was no question, no doubt. It was as certain as the sun rising each morning.

So why fight it? Why pretend their feelings were something less than what they were? Griffin couldn't understand the point of all the hiding, all the careful language, all the boundaries they were supposed to maintain.

Seamus shifted in his sleep, making a soft sound in his throat. His arms tightened around Griffin, pulling him even closer. Griffin felt his brother's warmth envelop him completely, and something inside him settled, quieted. This was right. This was home.

Without thinking, Griffin pressed his lips against Seamus's chest in a gentle kiss. It wasn't planned or calculated, just a natural expression of the love that filled him. Seamus's skin was warm against his mouth, tasting faintly of salt and sleep.

"Hey…" Seamus's voice was soft, gravelly with sleep. His eyes fluttered open, focusing slowly on Griffin's face.

Griffin looked up, uncertain for a moment. Would the morning light bring back all of last night's awkwardness? Would Seamus pull away, embarrassed by their closeness?

But Seamus just smiled, a lazy, contented smile that crinkled the corners of his eyes. His arms remained wrapped around Griffin, holding him close without hesitation or self-consciousness. There was no tension in his body, no sign that he found anything strange about their position.

"Morning," Griffin replied, his own voice quiet in the stillness of the room.

Seamus yawned and stretched one arm above his head, keeping the other firmly around Griffin. Then he settled back, pulling Griffin against his chest again with easy affection. "Sleep okay?"

Griffin nodded against Seamus's skin. "Yeah. You?"

"Better than I have in a while." Seamus's fingers found their way to Griffin's hair, stroking absently. It was something he'd done since they were small, a gesture of comfort that had become second nature.

The silence between them was comfortable, peaceful. All the unspoken tension of the previous day seemed to have dissolved in the night. In its place was a quiet understanding, a certainty that hadn't been there before.

"I'm sorry about yesterday," Seamus said suddenly, his voice low.

Griffin lifted his head, meeting his brother's eyes. "It's okay."

"No, it's not." Seamus's face was serious now. "I shouldn't have invited Leo over without talking to you first. This is our space. Our home."

Something warm bloomed in Griffin's chest at those words. Our space. Our home. Not just the physical house, but the world they had built together, the sanctuary they had created for themselves.

"I was just scared," Griffin admitted, the words coming easier than he'd expected. "I thought he was going to take you away from me."

Seamus's arms tightened around him. "Nobody's going to take me away from you. Nobody could."

The certainty in his voice made Griffin's throat tight. He ducked his head, pressing his face against Seamus's chest again, hiding the sudden heat in his eyes.

"I think I understand now," Seamus continued, his hand still moving gently in Griffin's hair. "If Leo wants to be our friend, that's fine. But if he's trying to come between us… that's not happening."

Griffin felt the vibration of Seamus's voice through his chest, a deep rumble that echoed in his own body. "You mean that?"

"More than anything." There was no hesitation in Seamus's voice, no uncertainty. "I love you more than anyone in the world, Griff. That's not negotiable."

The words were simple, but they carried the weight of a promise. Griffin closed his eyes, letting them sink in, letting himself believe them completely. This was Seamus—his Seamus—who had never lied to him, never let him down.

"I love you too," Griffin whispered against Seamus's skin.

Seamus shifted, tilting Griffin's face up so their eyes met. His gaze was steady, certain. "I know we don't talk about… about what this is. But I need you to know that nothing's more important to me than you. Not Leo, not anyone. Just you."

Griffin swallowed hard. They were skating close to the edge now, to that dangerous territory they hadn't named. But in the safety of the morning, with Seamus looking at him with such open affection, Griffin found he wasn't afraid.

"Same here," he said simply. "You're everything to me, Shea."

Seamus's smile was like sunrise, slow and warming. "Then we're good."

Griffin nodded, settling back against Seamus's chest. They were good. Better than good. They were together, and nothing else really mattered.

Outside, the day was beginning in earnest. Griffin could hear his parents moving around downstairs, the distant sound of the coffee maker, the creak of the kitchen floorboards. Soon they'd have to get up, face the day, put on the masks they wore for the rest of the world. But for now, in this quiet, golden moment, they could just be themselves.

Seamus's hand had returned to Griffin's hair, stroking rhythmically. The gentle touch was lulling Griffin back toward sleep, his eyes growing heavy despite the morning light.

"We should probably get up soon," Seamus murmured, but made no move to release Griffin.

"Mm," Griffin agreed without conviction. "Five more minutes."

He felt rather than heard Seamus's chuckle, a gentle vibration against his cheek. "Five more minutes," Seamus agreed.

Griffin closed his eyes, sinking into the warmth and safety of his brother's embrace. The questions and complications would still be there later—what to do about Leo, how to navigate their complex feelings, how to face a world that wouldn't understand. But those problems seemed manageable now, not the insurmountable obstacles they'd appeared to be last night.

Because this morning, in the clarity that came with dawn, one thing was certain: they would face whatever came together. As they always had. As they always would.

Griffin listened to the steady rhythm of Seamus's heart, strong and constant beneath his ear. Each beat seemed to echo the promise they'd made to each other: I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. I love you.

The sailboat cut through the water with a gentle rhythm that had become familiar to Griffin over the past week. July heat pressed down on his bare shoulders as he adjusted the jib line, his movements now confident where they had once been tentative. Across the deck, Seamus worked with the same easy competence, his tanned skin gleaming with sweat and seawater. Their uncle had been right—they'd taken to sailing like they were born to it. But then, Griffin thought, they'd always been quick to learn anything they could do together.

"Looking good, boys!" Uncle Mike called from the helm. "Griffin, ease that sheet a bit more when we come about."

Griffin nodded, already anticipating the maneuver. Ten days into their sailing trip, and the language of the boat had become second nature. Sheets, halyards, winches, cleats—words that had meant nothing to him before now flowed through his mind as naturally as breathing.

The twenty-eight-foot sailboat wasn't large by any standard, but to Griffin and Seamus, it was a floating kingdom. Uncle Mike had invited them for a late summer cruise along the coast, along with their cousin Ben and two of Ben's friends—Sara and Josh. The six of them lived in close quarters that would have been uncomfortable if not for the endless blue horizon that surrounded them, offering a freedom that balanced the boat's confines.

Seamus caught Griffin's eye across the deck and smiled, a private expression that carried the weight of everything they'd discovered about themselves and each other in recent weeks. Griffin returned the smile, feeling that now-familiar warmth spread through his chest. Since that night when everything had changed between them—when unspoken feelings had finally found acknowledgment—they'd settled into a new understanding, one that felt both dangerous and right.

"Guys, lunch is ready!" Ben called from below. At sixteen, their cousin had appointed himself cook for the journey, claiming none of the others could be trusted not to poison everyone.

"Coming," Seamus called back, but he didn't move immediately. Instead, he stretched, arms reaching toward the sky, muscles shifting beneath sun-browned skin. Griffin watched, not bothering to hide his appreciation. Out here, surrounded by water and sky, their usual caution had relaxed somewhat. No one noticed how they looked at each other—or if they did, they attributed it to the natural closeness of brothers.

Uncle Mike took over the lines as the boys headed below. The cabin was dim after the bright sunlight, and pleasantly cool. Griffin blinked, letting his eyes adjust as he found a seat at the small table. Seamus slid in beside him, their shoulders touching in the cramped space. No one remarked on their closeness—it was expected, necessary even, in the boat's limited quarters.

"You guys are getting good up there," Ben said, passing them plates of sandwiches. "Uncle Mike says you're natural sailors."

"It's not that hard once you get the hang of it," Seamus replied, but pride colored his voice.

Sara, seated across from them, nodded eagerly. "You looked really professional, Seamus. Have you thought about joining the sailing team at school? They're always looking for athletic guys."

Her eyes lingered on Seamus's bare chest a beat too long, her admiration obvious. At thirteen, the same age as Seamus, Sara had made no secret of her interest over the past week and a half. Her attempts at flirtation ranged from transparent compliments to finding reasons to be wherever Seamus happened to be.

Griffin felt the familiar twinge in his stomach whenever she looked at his brother that way. Not quite jealousy—he knew where Seamus's feelings lay—but a protective instinct, a desire to shield what was theirs from outside interference.

Seamus just shrugged, seemingly oblivious to her attention. "Maybe. Griff and I usually do soccer in the fall, though."

"You guys do everything together, huh?" Josh asked around a mouthful of sandwich.

"Pretty much," Griffin answered, the simple response hiding volumes.

The conversation shifted to plans for the afternoon—swimming off the boat, exploring a small cove Uncle Mike had spotted on the chart. Griffin ate his sandwich, content to listen rather than talk, enjoying the press of Seamus's arm against his own.

After lunch, they anchored in the protected waters of the cove. The swimming was perfect—clear water that shifted from teal to deep blue as it deepened, warm enough to stay in for hours. Griffin and Seamus dove repeatedly from the side of the boat, racing each other to an outcropping of rocks and back. Their bodies cut through the water with matched precision, years of swimming together having taught them each other's rhythms.

"Race you to the big rock," Griffin challenged after they'd caught their breath from the last swim.

Seamus grinned. "You're on."

They dove together, the coolness of the water a pleasant shock against sun-heated skin. Griffin pulled ahead slightly, but he could feel Seamus just behind him, the turbulence of his strokes pushing through the water. They reached the rock almost simultaneously, Seamus's hand slapping the rough surface a fraction of a second before Griffin's.

"Beat you," Seamus said, treading water, his face flushed with exertion and triumph.

Griffin splashed him lightly. "Barely."

They clung to the rock, letting the gentle swells lift and lower them. From this distance, the sailboat looked smaller, the figures on deck reduced to colorful specks. It was like being in their own world, separate from everyone else.

"Sara's still watching you," Griffin observed, nodding toward the boat where Sara sat on the deck, ostensibly reading but clearly keeping an eye on them—on Seamus.

Seamus sighed. "Yeah, I know. It's getting kind of awkward."

"You going to do anything about it?"

"What can I do?" Seamus pushed wet hair back from his forehead. "I don't want to be a jerk."

Griffin shrugged. "You could just tell her you're not interested."

"Maybe." Seamus was quiet for a moment, his eyes on the horizon. "Let's swim back. I'm starting to get cold."

They didn't race this time, just swam side by side, matching their pace to each other. As they approached the boat, Griffin could see Sara setting aside her book, straightening her posture. He felt a flicker of sympathy for her—not knowing she was setting herself up for disappointment—mixed with a selfish relief that Seamus had no interest in her attention.

They hauled themselves up the ladder at the stern. Water streamed from their bodies, pooling on the deck at their feet. Sara appeared with towels, offering one to Seamus with a smile that showed she'd put on lip gloss since lunch.

"Thanks," Seamus said, taking it with casual politeness.

Griffin accepted the second towel, noting how her smile dimmed slightly when she turned to him. He wasn't offended. He understood the power of Seamus's blue eyes, his easy charm. Who wouldn't be drawn to him?

The afternoon passed lazily. Uncle Mike napped below, Ben and Josh played cards, and Griffin stretched out on the bow to dry in the sun, eyes closed against the glare. He was half-asleep when he heard voices—Sara and Seamus—coming from the side of the boat. He kept his eyes closed, but his attention sharpened.

"…just thought maybe we could hang out sometime after we get back," Sara was saying. "There's that new movie coming out next week."

There was a pause before Seamus responded. "That's nice of you to ask, but I can't."

"Oh." Sara's voice faltered. "Are you busy or…?"

"I'm kind of seeing someone, actually." Seamus's voice was gentle but firm. "I should have mentioned it before."

"Oh! I didn't realize…" Sara sounded embarrassed now. "She doesn't mind you being away all this time?"

"No, it's… it's someone who understands me. Who gets that sometimes I need space, but also knows I'm always coming back."

Griffin's heart beat faster at the words. He knew exactly who Seamus was describing, even if Sara didn't.

"She sounds nice," Sara said, her voice small.

"Yeah." There was a warmth in Seamus's voice that made Griffin's chest tighten. "The best."

Griffin heard footsteps as they moved away, the conversation apparently over. He remained still, processing what he'd heard. Seamus had lied, technically—there was no girlfriend waiting at home. But the feelings he'd described were real. Griffin felt a rush of emotion, knowing that Seamus had found a way to deflect Sara's interest while also, in a way, declaring his true feelings where anyone could hear them.

Later, as the afternoon stretched into evening and the others were busy helping Uncle Mike prepare dinner, Griffin found Seamus alone at the bow.

"I heard you talking to Sara earlier," he said quietly, leaning on the railing beside his brother.

Seamus glanced at him. "Yeah?"

"Yeah." Griffin hesitated, then added, "That was a good way to handle it."

"It seemed easier than telling her the truth." Seamus's voice was low, meant only for Griffin. "That I'm not available because…" He trailed off, leaving the obvious unspoken.

Griffin nodded, understanding completely. "She seemed to accept it."

"I think so." Seamus was quiet for a moment. "I didn't want to hurt her feelings, but I also didn't want to… I don't know, leave any doors open."

The implication was clear. Seamus was protecting what they had, making it clear—in his own way—that his heart was already taken.

"I get it," Griffin said simply. "Thanks."

Seamus bumped his shoulder against Griffin's, a casual gesture that carried deeper meaning between them.

That night, like every night on the boat, the sleeping arrangements were tight. Uncle Mike took the small forward cabin, Ben and Josh shared the converted dinette, and Sara slept on the narrow bench in the main cabin. That left the small quarter berth for Seamus and Griffin. It was barely wider than a twin bed, tucked beneath the cockpit with a low ceiling that made it impossible to sit up straight.

To everyone else, it seemed natural for the brothers to share the space. They were the closest in age, the most used to each other's presence. No one thought twice about it. But for Seamus and Griffin, the arrangement was a secret luxury—a chance to be close in a way that would have raised eyebrows anywhere else.

"Goodnight, everyone," Uncle Mike called from his cabin, and a chorus of responses echoed through the boat.

Griffin climbed into the berth first, settling against the wall. The space was warm from the day's heat, the small porthole propped open to catch the evening breeze. Seamus followed, his movements careful in the confined space. They were both wearing only boxers, the summer heat making anything more uncomfortable.

"Tight fit," Seamus whispered, though they both knew it was no tighter than it had been every other night.

"Yeah," Griffin agreed, playing along with the pretense.

They settled together, finding the familiar arrangement of limbs that allowed them both to fit comfortably. Seamus's arm draped over Griffin's side, his chest pressed against Griffin's back. Their bare legs tangled together, skin against skin in the darkness. To anyone who might glance in, it would look like nothing more than brothers making the best of cramped quarters. But Griffin felt the intentional way Seamus held him, the gentle press of lips against the back of his neck when they were sure everyone else was asleep.

"Today was good," Seamus whispered, his breath warm against Griffin's ear.

"Yeah," Griffin agreed. "I like it out here. No one watching us all the time."

"Just being us."

"Just being us," Griffin echoed.

They lay together, listening to the gentle creak of the boat, the lapping of water against the hull. The rhythmic sounds had become as familiar as each other's breathing, a soundtrack to their summer days.

"What you said to Sara," Griffin whispered after a long silence. "About someone who understands you and knows you're coming back…"

"I meant it," Seamus replied, his arm tightening slightly around Griffin's waist. "Every word."

Griffin covered Seamus's hand with his own. "I know."

Outside their small cocoon, the world continued turning. There would be complications waiting when they returned home—questions they couldn't answer, feelings they couldn't explain to others. But here, on the water, those problems seemed distant and manageable. Here, they could simply exist together, their bond neither questioned nor examined by others.

As Griffin drifted toward sleep, Seamus's warmth surrounding him, he thought about how strange it was that their happiest time had come after the most difficult conversation of their lives. Since acknowledging the truth of their feelings—those complicated, impossible feelings that defied easy categorization—they had found not shame or confusion, but a quiet certainty. A peace that came from no longer fighting against themselves.

The boat rocked gently, cradling them as they slept. Tomorrow would bring another day of sun and water, of shared work and secret glances. Another day of being together in plain sight, their true selves hidden in the open. Another perfect day in what had become the happiest summer of their lives.

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The Red Guitar

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